WELL I AM BACK!
I was reading over the old posts that I made about this time last year. Not sure why this is the time of year that I decide it is time to change and lose weight. OK I have tried all kinds and have lost it of course, but it finds me everytime and I NEED it gone for good this time. I lost 20 pounds this time last yr and have gained almost all of it back. In May I signed up for Weight Watchers thinking an easier plan to follow and a support group would help me out. Well most of the time I was enrolled I was gone on meeting day or was sick and did not go. So group part didn't help because I did not go. The menus easy to follow but, I would have to do just that, to Lose any. Had to pay in advance for 10 weeks so it made me mad at myself for not completing and following through. The one before that where I did actually lose the 20 lbs was Nutri Systems and I spent so much money on all the food to eat and then realized it was not so good for me all processed food that did not even need refrigeration or how good is that for me? OK now I have spent money for the food and it is still sitting her because I hate that it is all so processed there can not possibly be any nutrients in it. VERY Frustrated with my self. I hate being fat and now my cholesterol is too high and I am taking another pill I don't want to take!

What should I do? My medications say as side effects they can cause weight gain. If I don't take them I can barely function. So I have to take them plus all the other side effects. That is 1 reason why I cannot lose weight. Other reasons are I love to EAT! I eat when I am happy, hungry, not hungry, sad, mad, upset, worried, ok ok you get it I eat for every reason in the book! I need to lose weight for my HEALTH or I don't see much future that is a quality of life future. I have fibromyalgia and severe migraines. So my life is pretty much planned one day at a time and it is hard to plan things like exercise class because it may be a bad day and I can't get out of bed.
Another reason I need to lose weight is that my son got married in July and I don't like the way his mother looks in those wedding pix I swear, I HAVE to lose weight.

OK all the reasons why I eat and gain weight and why I need to lose weight so I have tried another one. OF COURSE it costs money they all do but it is different. You learn to eat regular food and you make it yourself. I will go 3 times a week for an injection of b6/b12/lipo that will help with stress and help flush the fat out of my liver plus all the other toxins from my meds. There are supplements that I can get at the store or buy from them but don't have too.

My goal will have me losing 55 pounds and that may not make me skinny by any means but will get me to I think managable weight. I do have a hard time exercising because of my fibro but have a gazzel and plan to start using it even 5 min a day. I can hopefully walk around the block and do it more than once that way walking around the block will bring me by my home so I can quit if I need to and won't be a mile away from the house. Don't know if I could walk that far anyway!

This blog is going to be a way to keep track of my feelings. Ups and downs and what works and what doesn't. I WILL succeed this time! Iam drinking so much water I might have to go swimming. HA!!

If you are on a weight loss voyage please share and we can support each other.